I think about the meaning of love everyday, I worry about the feel of pain and cry when the feeling of loss arrives. All these emotions are natural to each and everyone of us humans. Matter of fact I feel these emotions almost everyday. Before love once got in the way of a strong friendship when my best friend decided to go out with the guy who I coincidently fancies, life's wonderful right? I'm being sarcastic by the way... Now I kinda like someone else only to find that like five other people fancy him to. Never before have felt this annoyed! And confused!!!!! I feel as though there is no one to talk to about this nightmare! All my best friends that I trust with my life fancies him! And my other best friend just doesn't get it! Life is full of confusment, hate and pain! Sometimes I would swear he fancies me to, but then he does something stupid or he would go and talk to my other best friend for the whole day and then the next day he's talking back  to me and making eye contact and at the most randomist of moments when he's talking to my tummy would just go all fluttery! And then I go home and ponder, day dream and wonder and hope that when I go back again the next day, he'll be there and we can talk and smile and be happy. And for those few minuets that he's with me I can Just forget about everything else people have been saying, and I can forget about all those other people who fancy him and are planning on asking him out. I know it's hard, and I know sometimes I just want to hit myself on the head for falling for him when I know A it will never work and B In other situations he would pick every other girl BUT me!!! Or would he? I dunno, I can never get in to the male mind... EVER!!

KELLY CLARKSON - BECAUSE OF YOU LYRICS

KELLY CLARKSON - BECAUSE OF YOU LYRICS

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you

Because of you

Friend wars

Have you ever gotten into a fight with a mate before? I have, tons of times, it was the worst! But it always seemed to get worse as we got older, and it was always with this one girl in particularly. She would always do mean things to me and then be my friend 10 seconds later and that was for six whole years! Now I'm older I've realised there's no point in having a friendship like that, I've also realized that to keep me to herself she never wanted me to be friends with anyone else but her. I used to try and make friends with other people and she used to accuse me of being horrible and liking them better. I've had enough. Have you ever gotten up to that part? the pint of where you feel as though you're about to burst if you continue this on? I have, now she's being so... so... you know words don't even describe how i feel right now! she's tried to smuggle her way into our group, it's worked and now I can't bear to be around her, so i'm having to go and find someone else. Life sucks  as much as love bites, stay close for more updates.
Love lovebitesxxx