I think about the meaning of love everyday, I worry about the feel of pain and cry when the feeling of loss arrives. All these emotions are natural to each and everyone of us humans. Matter of fact I feel these emotions almost everyday. Before love once got in the way of a strong friendship when my best friend decided to go out with the guy who I coincidently fancies, life's wonderful right? I'm being sarcastic by the way... Now I kinda like someone else only to find that like five other people fancy him to. Never before have felt this annoyed! And confused!!!!! I feel as though there is no one to talk to about this nightmare! All my best friends that I trust with my life fancies him! And my other best friend just doesn't get it! Life is full of confusment, hate and pain! Sometimes I would swear he fancies me to, but then he does something stupid or he would go and talk to my other best friend for the whole day and then the next day he's talking back  to me and making eye contact and at the most randomist of moments when he's talking to my tummy would just go all fluttery! And then I go home and ponder, day dream and wonder and hope that when I go back again the next day, he'll be there and we can talk and smile and be happy. And for those few minuets that he's with me I can Just forget about everything else people have been saying, and I can forget about all those other people who fancy him and are planning on asking him out. I know it's hard, and I know sometimes I just want to hit myself on the head for falling for him when I know A it will never work and B In other situations he would pick every other girl BUT me!!! Or would he? I dunno, I can never get in to the male mind... EVER!!